Day 55, Operation Looking GOOD feeling GOOD

I put 55 days, but I havent been on my diet properly for over a week. I wont weigh myself til next Friday, and then see if I havent done much harm and if the harm can be put right.

Points:

bran bake (2)
kinder x 2 (5)
cheese on toast (1.5)
corn cake (3.5)
rivita cheese 2 (2)
cheese on toast with sauce (4)
ice cream (3)
chocolate biscuits (4)
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25 points out of 20 allowed

No vitamin tablet

No exercise

I went a bit mad at dinner. I really need to get back on track. However, I did write down the points, and I didn't eat that much over. Tomorrow will have to be the start of going properly back to my diet. I must plan it properly and do well. I need to go over my motivation. I want to be under or just over 70 by the 9 of May, I have about 7 weeks. It can be done, but with proper dieting.

I will weigh myself on Friday after 5 days of dieting, and I hope to have put right this bad week, and be back to my last weigh in, which was 73.9. Can I do it?

Day 49, Operation Looking GOOD feeling GOO9

Points:

biscuits lu (1.5)
digestive (2.5)
lentils (3.5)
rice with tomato and cheese (6)
bran bake (2)
cheese on toast (1.5)
rivita with cheese (1)
corn cake with sauce (1)
nuts (1)
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20 points out of 20 allowed
I took my vitamin tablets

I did some meditation last night and breathing exercises

Day 48, Operation Looking GOOD feeling GOO8

Quite a few days without writing. On Thurday I nearly had a post ready to publish, and I had kept to my points, and then just before I went bed I pigged out on these cheese crisp bread things in cheese. The next following days haven't been any better, as both days I had some crisps, and some chocolate, and did not count the points, buy I am sure I had many many more, probably more than double I should.

Having said that, I would have had more in the past, but yesterday did get quite near to how much I would pig out in the past, so I have had to put a stop to it today.

I am making lentils, and plan to eat healthy and keep to my points.

Points:

biscuit (1)
cheese on toast (1.5)
nuts (1)
lentils (2.5)
cheese on toast (1.5)
bran bake with choc (4.5)
lentils (2)
corn cake (1)
cereals (3)
rivita with cheese (2)
mandarine (0)
apple (0)

So 20 points out of 20 allowed.

Did not take my vitamin tablet

Did some yoga

I plan to have a good week, the only hiccup is going to be my period in the middle. But I am determined to continue with my diet.

The picture above is of a bracelet that I bought on ebay for a couple of euros. It's the first time I have bought anything on ebay for ages.

Day 44, Operation Looking GOOD feeling GOOD

Points:
bran bake (2)
mini kinder bar (2.5)
corn cake (1)
bread and cheese (2.5)
lentils (2.5)
lentils (2.5)
bran bake (2)
corn cakes (1)
biscuit (1)
cheese on toast (1.5)
apple (0)

18.5 points out of 20 allowed

Took my vitamin tablet

My progress

Each weigh day I will come back to this post and update it.




Start weight at beginning of 1st diet ----> 90.0 kilos
Start weight at beginning of 2nd diet ----> 80.5 kilos
Current weight ----> 74.2 kilos
Goal... weight ----> 68.0 kilos

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---------------------------Before (80.5 kilos)
Lost 1st week ----->2.6 kilos (77.9 kilos)
Lost 2nd week ---->0.6 kilos (77.3 kilos)
Lost 3+4th week ->1.8 kilos (75.5 kilos)
lost 4+6th week -->1.3 kilos (74.2 kilos)

Day 42, Operation Looking GOOD feeling GOOD

Points:


biscuits 5
corn cake 1
nut 1.5
pasta 6
bran bake 2
apple 0
pasta 3
cheese on toast (1.5)
pasta (3)

23 points out of 20 points

I took my vitamin tablet

So tomorrow I have to eat only 17 points to compensate the extra 3 points of today.

Day 41, Operation Looking GOOD feeling GOOD

Yesterday was a pointless day, as in too many points. Having said that I did not pig out, I just eat a lot more than I should to lose weight. I have never been to the shops since I¡ve been on this diet and bought loads of crap like before. On Friday when at X uncles, they put crisps on the table, X eat quite a few even though he always use to critize me for eating them. I can't say I really wanted to eat them, I was quite indifferent and didn't touch them

However, last night I had terrible diarrhea, I think it might have been the ice cream I ate, things like that seem not to go down to well if I have too much.

Anyway I am more or less the same weight lately, I plan to do more exercise next week so see if that helps me lose

Points:

cheese on toast (1.5)
corn (0.5)
digestive biscuit (1.5)
pumpkin pure (5)
cheese and turkey one round (2)
nuts (1.5)
apple (0)
cheese and turkey sandwich (3.5)
biscuit (1.5)
walnuts (1)
pistachos (1)
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19 points out of 20 allowed

No vitamin tablet or exercise

When I watched a programme the other night about anorexics I could quite understand them. I mean, I am not anorexic, but because of my other problem. From the outside, their problem seems stupid, just eat and you are okay, the problem seems the same for me, just get in a car and go as far as it takes you, problem solved. But the reality is not like that, neither theirs or mine. I just want a magic wand and my problem to be gone, and instead it is just very small steps and then feeling much the same as before. In many ways its like you losing weight, you have to put loads of effort into it, but then, you are just the same, but you know that if you continue putting loads of effort into it, you will eventually lose the weight, and I will eventually be well. But as results are not quick, and the end result it so faraway it can be really frustrating and every now again I feel very overwhelmed and disheartened. But I try not to let it last for long, I will not get far like that.

And on top I am on my diet. The thing is, I dont have to think of the whole picture, just concentrate on my everyday steps. The difference is, now, I am in the process of getting well, of getting slim, it may take a time, but before I was not in a process, now I am THATS THE DIFFERENCE. Every day takes me that very much closer to my goal I just get frustrated because I want everything now, and I want a baby NOW, not in a near future where in the middle I have to go through all sorts of situations that are not pleasant to get there.

So, one more step, and I have to think, I am going to look great this summer!!!