I haven't been writing this lately, maybe because I have a diary on the computer that I am doing more. It is really cold, I am tired, and I can't think of anything to put. I would at least like to record my food diary here.

Bet you didn't know that this game had come out?

Sunday Morning: 78. something. I was not bad, and not good yesterday. I am happy because I had fruit, veg, and lentils, but I also had a packet of crisps, some apple pie. The crisps are a type that I really liked and they stopped making them. Now, they have bought them back and they cost 70 cents more! Only because they have a few grams. When I had them, they didn't taste anything special, in general, the crap I can access to, doesn't taste special at all and not even worth having, being sometimes the reason that I eat just out of habit, boredom, or a sort of association with eating crap and relaxing or being compensated for being tired from work etc.

So I will try to continue more as the first day, eat pleanty of fruit and veg, nuts and lean protein, and when I do have a treat, have something i REALLY want, so that I enjoy it, not just eat things for the sake of it.

Detox

Well, it was not exactly a detox. I am not even sure to what point I believe in them after seeing a documentary on the bbc about this subject. However, I did think my body would benefit from cutting down and eating certain foods as a I way of starting my diet. I felt quite hungry, but I ate quite frequently, having soup, yogurt, quite a lot of fruit (a few tangerines, apple and a banana), a piece of fish, and at night I had one round of toast with a sante cheese on it (I wasnt going to have any bread, but in the end I felt a bit sick and did so). I also drank loads of water.

I didnt go toilet yesterday, or this morning, so I think I can safely say that I can have a yoghurt without having diarrhea, I think it is maybe when I have more than one, or too many creamy things.

I went on the scales, and I was 78 something, I think 78 8 o 7, not sure, I was half asleep, but I did look properly to make sure it was not 79 something and was 78 something, and it was, and that was all that seemed important. Then I am where I started, to continue my diet and finally do the next lap, which is to weigh less than 70 kilos, that is, minimum 69.9...

I have many reasons to lose the weigh, so I hope to continue this way...

Diet Time

I have over 2 months to lose a stone, that is, 7 kilos. I will say I want to to lose a minimum of 5 kilos, and ideally 7 to make the stone. I want to spend my Christmas money on clothes, and I just never got used to clothes for fat people, or fat sizes, I don't like the look on me of being fat.

I am not that fat anymore, at under 80 kilos (around 78 to 79 kilos) at a height of 172 I am just with about 1 stone overweight. I actually want to lose more than that, but I have to take things at a step at a time. I don't want to be a size 38, but a 40 to 42. (like a size 12 more or less) At the moment I am more like a bulging 14)

So diet and exercise together, motivation, will power to keep it up. Even though the diet starts by now, I will put the first weigh in on Wednesday Morning.

Monday

So I had my vitamin tablet, and fruit (banana) and cauliflower (veg) and chicken with fresh tomatoes, so I feel good even though I feel awful with my cold.

This is a continuation of the post below.

I felt a bit hungry so I had one round of toast with one santé cheese on it and two bites of a banana ( I will have the rest for breakfast ).

I did have the temptation to go down and get some crisps. But I have got out of the habit lately so it would be a pity to get back into it. I also really feel hard about wanting to look good. I really want to be able to go into shops and be able to buy the clothes that I see and for them to look how I want them to look. I was surprised that it stopped me enough. I have got into the habit of not eating right and it it hardly bothers me. I am glad that it is bothering me, maybe that will keep me being consistent.

I am sure these sort of food because of the chemicals in them have some sort of addictive properties. Especially pringles, I havent had any since Thursday. I remember when I lived in the other flat, I really got addicted to having a burguer king meal. I would go after work or at night, nearly every day, and for quite a few weeks. I would have chips, burguer, ice-cream. The people got to know me. It was one of the only times I was really conscious of being addictive to something. I am glad I got out of that habit.