Diet Time

I have over 2 months to lose a stone, that is, 7 kilos. I will say I want to to lose a minimum of 5 kilos, and ideally 7 to make the stone. I want to spend my Christmas money on clothes, and I just never got used to clothes for fat people, or fat sizes, I don't like the look on me of being fat.

I am not that fat anymore, at under 80 kilos (around 78 to 79 kilos) at a height of 172 I am just with about 1 stone overweight. I actually want to lose more than that, but I have to take things at a step at a time. I don't want to be a size 38, but a 40 to 42. (like a size 12 more or less) At the moment I am more like a bulging 14)

So diet and exercise together, motivation, will power to keep it up. Even though the diet starts by now, I will put the first weigh in on Wednesday Morning.

Monday

So I had my vitamin tablet, and fruit (banana) and cauliflower (veg) and chicken with fresh tomatoes, so I feel good even though I feel awful with my cold.

This is a continuation of the post below.

I felt a bit hungry so I had one round of toast with one santé cheese on it and two bites of a banana ( I will have the rest for breakfast ).

I did have the temptation to go down and get some crisps. But I have got out of the habit lately so it would be a pity to get back into it. I also really feel hard about wanting to look good. I really want to be able to go into shops and be able to buy the clothes that I see and for them to look how I want them to look. I was surprised that it stopped me enough. I have got into the habit of not eating right and it it hardly bothers me. I am glad that it is bothering me, maybe that will keep me being consistent.

I am sure these sort of food because of the chemicals in them have some sort of addictive properties. Especially pringles, I havent had any since Thursday. I remember when I lived in the other flat, I really got addicted to having a burguer king meal. I would go after work or at night, nearly every day, and for quite a few weeks. I would have chips, burguer, ice-cream. The people got to know me. It was one of the only times I was really conscious of being addictive to something. I am glad I got out of that habit.

Sunday

I have been ill today. I have slept a lot, and tried to drink liquids, and rest basically so that I will feel well tomorrow (or as well as I can). I will only go 2 hours out of the 3 to drawing so that I will be well rested for the afternoon. I will have to try to speak little and generally not tire myself as I have a general malestar.

I had my vitamin tablet and an apple, I havent pigged out on crisps or anything of the kind, but I havent particularly been on a diet. I dont weigh any more, I will try to buy some cauliflower tomorrow.

This is a hello kitty feng shui cat. They must be popular. I still think it is strange. I am sure that cat got me to clean out all my living room and then in a sinister way made sure he was the only ornament left.

I have a sore throat and a bit of a coff. I am drinking mint with honey and have some paracetamol near just in case, though I hate to take anything. I will try to eat some fruit today, and have my vitamin tablet, see if I do. The weather is terrible, raining without stopping, it scares me when I see all the floods and it makes me think that will happen to us.

Friday

Well, the English shop was a bad idea. I have been eating waffles and not had a piece of fruit or even my vitamin tablet. However, I have cut down on the crap: crisps ect.

I don't like the corn beef, it looks, smells like cat food.

I have included some feng shui cats. I still want the red one. it simbolizes something for me.

As you can see, you can even get feng shui cat families.

(Beginning of Wednesday below)

Update: I did what I wanted: I had a diet natural yogurt and a banana for supper, some more salmon, a couple of dry toast thingys with marge and then a musly and choc bar. At the academy I had half a musly and choc bar. SO i had no crisps, no chocs, and no crap.(Night is my worst time)

I ate: spinach, salmon, apple, banana AND i had my vitamin tablet. SO, I am happy. It may seem silly, it is just one day, but it is so hard to start. I will continue the same tomorrow.

I feel crap after eating crap, but especially after eating pringles. There is something in them that make me sick.

Wednesday

I am trying to change my frame of mind about Seur and Correos. Getting in a bad temper doesn't do anything for me.

I have had an apple, and my vitamin tablet, and now i am cooking salmon (fresh) spinach (frozen).

UPDATE: I have eaten the salmon and spinach, very nice, especially the spinach which I afterwards fried in a bit of oil and garlic. SO X has his fresh food for tomorrow.

The big prueba comes at night. I have a plan, see if I can keep to it.

I have just noticed my watch is wrong, it must be losing time, now I am in a rush.

MUM, IF YOU READ THIS DONT RING ME IN THE MORNING. I HAVE HAD A VERY BAD NIGHT AND WILL PROBABLY SLEEP A BIT LATER THAN USUAL

I had a sort of a good day, it started better than it finished.

Drawing was very good. I felt really good doing it, the place is nice, lots of light and roomy.

On my ride back I took some of the pictures you can see above. It was a great day, lovely weather.

I managed to also do house work, cook food for Xu (that after all my effort was not enough, sometimes I could kick his tuperware all over the kitchen and stamp on it).

I ate chicken, a pear... however tonight I had some crisps as well as the chicken and 2 packs, so I dont feel I have finished the day healthy. I am very tired, and feel quite ill and dizzy. I want to end the day as I have started it.

I feel a great urge to eat well.

I hardly have any fruit. Not that much veg either. I saw Wing eating grapes one day, and rice with pepper in it the other. I would like to eat better and tomorrow after drawing I will get some fruit from the shop. I suppose being pregnant you want to eat well, though I am sure she always eats well. I eat terribly lately. So I must give details in my blog everyday.

Monday is Monday. A good day to start. I have tidied out my own wardrobe today. When I look at clothes I know how I want to look in them, and I don't yet look that way. I haven't really got back on my diet since before the summer.

I can't get the hang of having a vitamin table either (I have had one in 2 weeks).

I have to start counting the points from the morning, or then I forget, or eat too much. Even if I do eat too much it would be something if I could at least put down what I have ate and list the points.

I still have the energy problem. I think it is a mix of many years of anxiety, bad timestables, bad food etc. I think of tomorrow and I feel tired, just thinking of 3 hours of drawing and 5 and a half hours at the academy. I know why I keep such bad timestables. I don't want to get up just to be in the house on my own with no purpose. It makes me anxious to be many hours on my own. But, the bad timestable is not any better so I had better address it. I will be getting up early on tomorrow as I have the drawing class. I don't know why I don't feel excited at the moment. I think I am just tired. The thing about being tired is that you don't feel any better not doing anything. I have been doing a lot of cleaning and sorting out this weekend and I have had my period and before that a stomach bug so I suppose it is normal not to feel too energetic.

So, plans for tomorrow. Eat better, write down points. Must remember to go earlier to the academy to sort out my classes.

I have finally found out the name of a song that appears on Denise's birthing tape in the Royle Family. One of the pieces I have always known it is the famous pie jesu version of Charlotte Church. However, the other piece escaped me. I now know that it is the flower duet by Delibes, part of the opera Lakme.

I have been doing the cleaning today. However, I still have a great deal of tiding out to do. A LOT. My wardrobe for one is such a mess. I also find so many of my clothes from before totally awful. When I had more weight on me I didn't wear such nice things, and many things seam old, tired looking, too big, or make me look big as they are designed to hide what is no longer there. I really want to sort out my wardrobe. I also want to sort out the spare room. When I have done those too rooms I just need to sort out the kitchen cupboard. Taking care with my clothes and appearance are really important, and make up for any unpleasant feelings that I get in the road of recovery. Looking good outside gives me more confidence. I would really like to plan also the day before what I am going to wear. I hate that running around not knowing what to put on. I must admit it is easier now as things fit me better. However, I would really like to plan in advance what I am wearing, AND remember to get my nightwear out the room as once X is asleep it is hard to retrieve it all. Another important thing is to take of my nice clothes when I get home. The cats or the sofas either cover me in hairs, or they snag them. Yesterday Poi snagged a good brown cardigan from Mango, now it looks awful, though I must admit that it already had a few tags and snears. I nearly forgot, I also near to sort out the other wardrobe that has some of my clothes in, underwair and loads of towels and sheets. Don't think I will get it all done this weekend but I want to make a good start. I have at least more or less sorted out the living room.

I will start counting tomorrow, my period has been heavy and I have felt too sick to follow any sort of diet.

I thought this point theme on the blog would be good for my "point" diet. My pointscalculator is small with points (dots) on it as well. I never used it as when I had been 1 week on the WW diet, I changed to the other diet (the low carb one). So you put in the calories and the fat and the amount and it calculates how many points. With standard products that are in my points book it is quicker just to look up their points. (Today, my student's couldn't believe that "there" and "their" is pronounced the same. I couldn't believe they thought so)

Sooooo later I will be pointing up. And on Wednesday I will weigh in...

P.S. HAHAHA There is a website that you hum a song to (through the microphone) that you don't know the title of. Then they find it for you!!! (This is the unbelievable bit). There is a song that I have wanted to know for ages, I might have a go and see what happens http://www.midomi.com/

I have moved here as I started tampering with the other blog and it went a bit wrong. It could be mended but would take time and effort, and I have so much to do with my time and it takes no time what so ever to make a new blog. So, seeing that I am starting a new diet, it is a good moment to start a new blog. So, WW it is, the famous point diet. I am all ready with my point calculator and WW books, so off I go, tomorrow I will post what I have done with my 18 allowed points