Day 12, Operation Looking GOOD feeling GOOD

(Edited Sunday Morning)

Points:

Sante on toast (1.5)
digestive biscuit (1.5)
12 pistacho nuts (1.5)
food at espe (chickpeas and cabbage, because of oil and small piece of bread)(7)
tini pack of cheese biscuits (3)
bread with cheese (4)

pear (0)

mandarine (0)

pistachos nuts (1.5)

20 points from 20 points allowed

Have not taken my vitamin tablet

Have not done any exercise

I think that to lose half a kilo is very good, you cant say you havent eaten pleanty of different things, toast and bread, beans, bran bars, I go hungry as well, but you must admit that we eat pleanty. If you feel it is not suiting you, you can swith to calories, but you have to continue and get to the end of the diet.

I am quite sure that my weight loss will slow down from now on. That is the reason it is important that I do some exercise as well. It is not easy, more than often I have wanted to comfort myself with some food. But I won't. And if the day comes that I will, I will go straight back on the diet.

I dont think people have more will power than others. I think that will power comes from motivation and practice. I want the end result more than I want the quick pleasure of eating something nice in a difficult moment.  I keep imagine the nice spring days, when it gets warm, near the summer, and I go and come from work. The sort of days that make you want to walk outside and wear less clothing, and then I want to be a lot thinner. I picture how I will look and feel. I know that if I dont keep to this diet I will have failed myself. I know that I need to show myself I can control things and have the willpower to do so. I really wish that my other problem would be so "easy" to solve. But it is not, and will take longer, however I do it, to get the anxiety out of my system. Being thin will help that, and knowing that I have done it. Self confidence in one's abilities is very important.

My skin looks very much better. I am sure it is due to the following things:

I have cleaned my skin every single night (I have not done that, with that consistency for maybe years)

I have facial massages

I eat better things

I have been taking vitamins with more consistency than ever in the past

I told E. and she said that she could really notice it. I know your opinion is not great of her, but as she heard me talking of the massages and she was saying how much better I was looking, she had a fit of happiness and came and gave me two effussive kisses, saying that she was so glad that I was getting better, that it would make her really happy if I could get properly well. I felt a bit embarrased, as I always do from any signs of affection, but I do know her feeling was sincere and was glad of it.  She said that the face is the mirror of how we feel, so I suppose know that my skin is improving it is showing a healthier me. I find myself looking a lot in the mirror, because I look so different, and I find it hard to believe that the smooth skin really belongs to my complexion. 

There is no point in sitting and wishing things are different. Hard work done by only myself can make the world I want to live in. It is hard, even painful sometimes, like when you try to touch your toes and stay like that, but nothing that is worth it is easy, and my life has been on hold for too long.

Day 11, Operation Looking GOOD feeling GOOD

I have changed the title of the "Operation", as I don't only want to look good, I want to feel good, and the later is the most important. I do not only include my diet, but all the other exercises that I can do to improve my well being and my health.

Points for the day:

turkey sandwich: (4)
biscuit (?) (1.5)
2 corn cakes (1)
cheese biscuits (3)
20 grams pistacho (3)
cauliflower (0)
oil and vinegar (3)
bread (1)
corn cake (0.5)
pear
mandarine
10 grams of pistacho (1.5)
10 grams of piscacho(1.5)

20 points out of 20

Had my vitamin tablet

No exercise

Day 10, Operation Looking GOOD

Today's points:

2 digestive biscuits (3)
poached egg with toast (5)
sante cheese on 2 toast (3)
bake cake choc (2.5)
corn cake (0.5)
turkey sandwich (4)
mandarine (0)

Total 18 points out of 20 points

Had my vitamin

Did no exercise :(

Things that I want to change about my diet: At the moment I have just focused on losing weight and points counting. I have had fruit, but not enough veg, and I havent been eating a lot of protein, fish and so on, and I also want to eat lentils. Be healthier in general, do more than 1 times a week exercise (more like 4 times a week). I really want to meditate at least once a day.

Day 9, Operation Looking GOOD

Official weigh in: 77.9 kilos

Points for the day:

poached eggs on bread: (5 points)
2 digestive biscuits (3 points)
corn cake (0.5 points)
fitness bar (1.5)
mandarine (0)
2 bread with tomato and cheese (3 points)
1 corn (0.5)
bran bake (2)
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15.5 out of 20 points :)

No exercise :(

No vitamin tablet :(
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On the one hand I feel slimmer, I know that after a few months I will be very near to be a normal healthy weight, and after another few months a slim size. I would like to weigh between 65 to 68 kilos, if I feel happy with how I look weighing this. So the wii says, when I weigh 73 kilos, with my height, I will be a healthy weight, but of course that is being in the limit of what a healthy weight is. But anyway, in 5 months, that is more than enough time to lose 10 kilos, I would only have to lose 2 kilos a month.

SO, if I could be 67 for the summer, I would be very very pleased.

Day 8, Operation Looking GOOD

Points for today:

fitness bar x 1 (1.5)
digestive biscuit (1.5)
3 rounds of bread, 2 cheese, 1 1/2 of marge (5.5)
3 rounds of bread, 2 turkey 1/12 of marge (5.5)
fibre bake cake ( 2 )
choc fibre bake cake (2.5)
corn cake (0.5)

19 points out of 20 permitted

Did exercise (1/2 hour walking)

Didn't take vitamin tablet

I didnt mean to have more points than 18, I didn't count them before I eat, and then I saw I had had too many. I am still under however. I am not happy about the lack of fruit in my diet today. I must make sure I eat more of that.

Day 7, Operation Looking GOOD

And with this I have been one week on my diet. So tomorrow I am allowed should I wish 20 points. I can carry on with these points until I reach under 70 kilos (quite a while before that happens).

I will try only to eat 18, and should I feel the need to eat 20, I will sometimes. Or not, maybe I will just eat 18, I dont know! I will see!

Anyway, todays points:

Fitness bars x 2 (3)
veg ( 5)
2 digestive biscuits (3)
1 round of turkey on bread with little bit of marge (2)
1 round of bread (1)
2 digestive biscuits (3)
1 corn cake (0.5)

17.5 points out of 18 points

I took my vitamin tablet

Did no exercise

If I was counting the points like I saw in the book, I could have 2 biscuits for 2 points, but I after working them out myself, in my opinion they were more near 1.5 points than 1. So in general I also prefer to overvalue my points. (Not as much as you though).

I am walking tomorrow, so yipieeeee for doing some exercise, about time!

I feel quite fierce about not breaking my diet. I feel quite disgusted at how many times I have said I was going to diet and then ended up abandoning it. Just to go back to square one again and again. I mean, I did have a break through with my diet last year, the first in many years, but I do have to take it the full hog and get properly slim. I want to wear those trousers in my wardrobe! I want to respect myself for having willpower and being able to control my impulses. I want to do what I want.

Last night for some reason I was quite teary and off in general. I kept thinking I wanted to eat something. But I just ignored it, I am not going to let my emotions keep me back, so that I can get even more depressed about not being who I want to be and looking how I want to look. This is for real.

P.S. From what is says on the net, and my calculations,baked beans: you have in a full tin from 4 to 4.5 points. So half a tin is from 2 to 2.5 points. They have hardly any fat, just a trace basically. So they are a good thing to have.

Day 6, Operation Looking GOOD

My points for Sunday:

one round of toast with small bit of marge and very small bit of egg (2)
biscuit and rice cake (2 points)
mayonnaise (1)
salad (0)
corn ( 0.5)
2 potatoes (2)
cheese (1)
santè cheese on toast ( 1.5 )
2 biscuits ( 3 points)
1 packet of diet cheese biscuits ( 3 )
1 tangerine ( 0 )
corn cakes (1)
small bit of veg (1)

18 points of 18 allowed

No exercise

Vitamin tablet, not at the moment, I hope later to take it.

As I was almost 81 kilos, whatever I am on Wednesday under 80 is a bonus. I think my official weigh in, only a few days after the diet was 79.2 kilos. That was nearly a 2 kilos lost in a couple of days of diet. I imagine it was the shock of cutting down after eating as a pig, from now on I am aware that the process will slow down.

Day 5, Operation Looking GOOD

Here are Todays Points:

Food out 10 points
corn cake 2 points
digest biscuits (3 points)
2 rounds of bread with sante (3 points)
tangerine (0)
strawberries (0)
pear (0)

Total of 18 points of 18 allowed.

I had my vitamin tablet

Did no exercise (some walking, but not enough to be called exercise)

I do feel hungry, but the results are quite quick and it would be unfair to say that I have to make a big sacrifice, I have more or less planned the meals for the next days. You will have to remind me about the name of those allbran bars for when I go carrefour on Tuesday.

Day 4, Operation Looking GOOD

Points:

pumpkin puree (culprit the oil) ------------------ 8.5 points
turkey sandwich ( 4 points )
corn cake ( 0.5 )
fitness bar ( 1.5)
lu biscuits ( 2 )
cheese sante and onion on 1 toast (1.5)

Then late at night one more corn cake (0.5)

Total points (18.5 points exceeded from 18 points allowed)

No exercise

No vitamin tablet (felt too sick)


The big mistake was the amount of oil put in the puree, next time I will be putting half. The problem was that later in the evening I had a very bad sinus headache, and that always makes me feel sick and only eating something takes away that feeling. I then had my biscuits and cheese on toast, and felt better then, but at 12 oclock at night, I was stupidly hungry, and my head was really bad and with it the feeling sick. So at 3 in the morning I had 1 corn cake.

It is not really a problem. You have to add up your points together at the end of the week, and as long as they are 18 x 7, you are fine, and there was a day that I eat less than 18.

I feel slimmer and look better in general, especially my face.

I am very determined to get to my goal of being slim for the summer. And before the summer I MUST BE 60 something (69.9 will do)

Day 3, Operation Looking GOOD

Points for today:

4 rounds of bread ( 4 points )
2 teaspoons of marge (2 points)
2 slices of turkey (2 points)
3 lu biscuits ( 2 points)
1 fitness bar (1.5 points)
2 rounds of toasted cheese sandwich (2 points + 1 + 1 = 4 points)
biscuits (2 points)
rice cake (0.5)
an orange (0 points)

Total of 18 points out of 18 points

I had my vitamin tablet

No exercise

I am looking forward for going for my massage tomorrow. I like Fridays, and now I like them even more. Planning to make some pumpkin pure, will have to count out how much bread I can have with it. Weekends can be more tricky with the diet, it is easier to eat less when at work. Having said that, I have got out of the habit of going straight to the Chinese, they must miss me! ( I mean the money I spend). I have had a luffle bar in my bag for days. I could have one, but it would be quite a few points. I don't seem to eat that much, but points soon go

Official weight in: 79.2

My goal in the wiifit, to lose 4 kilos in the next 2 months. I want to lose more, but this would be the minimum. Lets go for it.

Day 2, Operation Looking GOOD

I am calling from Madrid. Here are my points:

Lunch:
2 small potatoes ( 2 points)
slice of edam cheese light (1 point)
corn (1 point)
mayon (1 point)
margerine (1 point)
salad and carrot (0 points)

Snacks:
3 packs of Diet Lu mini biscuits (they contain 3) ( 6 points)
5 corn cakes (2.5 points)

Supper
2 rounds of toast (2 points)
1 edam cheese light (1 point)

Total of 18 points out of 18 points

I had my vitamin tablet

No exercise

It is very strange about the mayonnaise. Before, light mayonnaise had about 27% fat, and you can get it in the supermarket still. But ligeresa have bought out a new one that has only 3% fat, I mean, that is a big big difference. IT does taste a bit weird I must say, but it does have nearly 10 times less fat, and 3 times less calories.

I do feel a bit peckish at night, before going bed. Not ravenous, more like I could pick at things, greedy things, but I am not really hungry. It has just been my way in the last months to always eat what I wanted when I wanted and to be full all the time, and to pick at food as if it was a pastime.

Tomorrow I have to eat more fruit. Oh, I just remembered, last night I had a mandarine before going bed, but that is 0 points, but good to have had some fruit.

P.S. I have officially looked up the points in a kinder egg and it is 2.5.

Day 1, Operation Looking GOOD

What have I ate:

2 rounds of toast with sante: ( 3 p )
1 fitness bars ( 1.5p )
Cheese, coleslaw sandwich:
bread ( 2 p )
coleslaw ( 1.5 p )
cheese (1.5p )
salad (0 p)
20 grams of walnuts ( 3.5p )
2 maria biscuits (2 p)
40 grams of icecream ( 2 p )
3 extra strong mints ( 0.5 p )

TOTAL: 16.5 Points out of 18 permitted.

I had my vitamin tablet

No exercise

I am surprised it added up to so much, as I didnt even have a proper meal. It goes to show, how easily the points add up. Things that will help: get some lighter cheese, eat more fruit, get some of those corn crackers (only 0.5 points).

I dont know if to weigh myself one day this week, or wait til next Wednesday. I will then get on the wii, and ask it to set me a goal of losing 4 kilos in 6 weeks.

I am sick of not looking how I want to look, and not doing what I want to do. So I am going to change that.

Dantes Prayer - Loreena McKennitt