Wednesday 23 December 2009
Just before xmas, 68.0 kilos. Only 3 kilos away from my goal weight (which I think will be more like 63 - 64 kilos, but this I will be able to tell when I get to 65). Not really doing any great efforts to diet, but I am losing it anyway. See if I put any on in the xmas hols all if I manage to go back work being 67.something (that would be good).
Monday 2 November 2009
Clothes I want to buy
Sunday 25 October 2009
Thursday 22 October 2009
Prizes
I have decided to give myself certain things as prizes.
For instance, I will not have my hair cut and put streaks in it until I weigh 60 something (at least 69.9). I am so near, its just silly. So my hair will remain too long until I reach that minigoal.
Then as for books, I want to order a couple of books via ebay. BUT, until I have achieved a triple goal in my other area, I am not going to order them.
Talking of books, I have a small library only 2 minutes away. I have noticed online they have some books I want, so tomorrow I am going to give back my other books to the other library and then I am going to the nearer one. Nacho says its an awful place, but I don't care, its near, and it has some books I want.
So come on, if I go from what I weighed in this morning (70.5) I only need to lose over half a kilo to go and cut my hair. Hopefully next week I will be able to!
P.S. I really wanted to read the book called: The Secret. And all 3 copies are out. Incredible! It must be popular! (just downloaded it from the Internet)
P.P.S. I have informed Xu, that he will be having pumpkin puree every Friday for whats left of this year. He didn't seem to mind, as its cheap and healthy, especially has I will throw in some crutons!
Tuesday 20 October 2009
Monday 19 October 2009
Saturday 17 October 2009
Friday 16 October 2009
Sunday 11 October 2009
Five little pumpkins
Sitting on a gate
The first one said,
"Oh, my, it's getting late!"
The second one said,
"There are witches in the air!"
The third one said,
"But we don't care!"
The fourth one said,
"Let's run and run and run!"
The fifth one said,
"I'm ready for some fun!"
OOOOOOOH, went the wind
And OUT went the light
And the five little pumpkins
Rolled out of sight.
They probably went in this:
Friday 2 October 2009
Dad's home grown veg
Thursday 1 October 2009
Pic from today
To have a new computer, or to make do with the old.
I do feel mean about contemplating having a new computer. I mean, the old one is being mended. However, the fact that the old one is being mended means it will have a even tinier memory than before, 16 gb to be precise, I feel like I can't pack it with all I want. I really would like a bigger screen as well, and I also love the esthetic of the computer above. But I feel guilty, a part of me wishes it would just not work and then I would have to have a new one.
I think one requirement to go ahead and get the computer would be to have achieved things. Even then I don't think it would be sufficient reason to go out and get it, but it could be a start.
Wednesday 30 September 2009
Getting on with it
Just a quick note to say that I am getting on with diet, going towards goals, and am waiting a couple more kilos to put some more pics up. (I know I have put some pics up here, but for me the real pics are the ones in my heart patterned shorts next to the fat photos) I am just over 70 kilos so hopefully very soon I can say for the first time in maybe 6 o 7 years (gosh!) that I am 60 something (in weight OBVIOUSLY!). Feeling hungry at the moment, but looking back I have had plenty to eat.Anyway, soon to bed and now to meditate, and will post back with some more news soon.
Saturday 6 June 2009
Disappointed
Disappointed.
Because I was so determined. Because It is already June. Because I managed to lose 7.5 kilos, and now I have put on another 1.5, and am now 6 kilos away from the weight I want to be for the summer. I am off track, and there is nothing worse than being that way. You eat, for the sake of it, out of habit. Without aim.
I want to do a diet for candida. But I will try not to do the most strict ones. Try to do a healthy logical one. I want to cut out all sugar and bread. I would only have certain fruits, and rice, and maybe potatoes. No frozen, or cans, or... I need to map it out, I am doomed from day one.
I need to get my skates on, in 10 ways more than 1.
Because I was so determined. Because It is already June. Because I managed to lose 7.5 kilos, and now I have put on another 1.5, and am now 6 kilos away from the weight I want to be for the summer. I am off track, and there is nothing worse than being that way. You eat, for the sake of it, out of habit. Without aim.
I want to do a diet for candida. But I will try not to do the most strict ones. Try to do a healthy logical one. I want to cut out all sugar and bread. I would only have certain fruits, and rice, and maybe potatoes. No frozen, or cans, or... I need to map it out, I am doomed from day one.
I need to get my skates on, in 10 ways more than 1.
Thursday 28 May 2009
Getting back on track
After looking at my progress pics http://emdiet2.blogspot.com/2009/02/progress-photos.html I felt a failure. I mean, I was so driven! So consistent! And just when I was getting near I just got out of the good habits and fell into the bad ones.
I am actually 3 or 4 kilos thinner than the thinner pics, but I really wanted to get to be under 70 kilos, like 69, before doing some more pics.
I am going to reread my diet, as I know for sure motivation put me on the path and gave me the will power. The thing is, once you are on a diet, its really not that bad, when I eat crap food most of the time I don't enjoy it anyway.
But I must say, really enjoying buying nice clothes and looking nice, even if I want to drop another size and a half. But this is important, want to go the whole hog, before I get fat again for more happier reasons :D
I am actually 3 or 4 kilos thinner than the thinner pics, but I really wanted to get to be under 70 kilos, like 69, before doing some more pics.
I am going to reread my diet, as I know for sure motivation put me on the path and gave me the will power. The thing is, once you are on a diet, its really not that bad, when I eat crap food most of the time I don't enjoy it anyway.
But I must say, really enjoying buying nice clothes and looking nice, even if I want to drop another size and a half. But this is important, want to go the whole hog, before I get fat again for more happier reasons :D
Friday 22 May 2009
Had an apple today. Might seam like: oh wow, but I have got out of the habit of eating fruit. I had bought quite a big bag of apples, and been some days since they have been just staring at me in the fruitbowl,and I think I would have been quite happy just to let them stay there and not eat them and eventually go bad. The first step was eating one, the next is to eat another. (had some salmon today too, good forrr yurrr
Wednesday 20 May 2009
A reminder to myself
After haven eating pringles and pate, I feel ever so sick. I am just writing this to remind myself that they make me really feel crap. Please, please, don't eat them again.
Monday 18 May 2009
Last hurdle: day 1
Weigh in at the end of the week, last hurdle of the diet to get to under 70 for the summer,
Goal weight, 68, 65 kilos? I don't know... depends how I look with 68 and what fits.
Hard to get into a diet when you have been off one for such a long time. I can honestly say that whilst I have been off the diet I have not enjoyed any particular foods or felt more hungry,just been to lazy to eat properly or count up what I have ate, never got much pleasure out of the crisps I bought or anything, so I will be no worst off. I have to get down to it now and lose a bit before May and June go by.
Points:
2 crisp breads with 1 sante (1.5) (these special bread things only have 17 calories, no even the 26 calories the corn cake has)
1 digestive hacendado biscuit (1.5) (they have an extra 1/2 point for having more chocolate and being delicious)
1 chocolate corn cake thingy (1.5)
2 rounds of bread with fish thing in not much oil (6 points?)
(I am trying to be more aware of what I eat and chew more slowly).
and from then on I didnt count points, but I did control myself
I had, bran bake at work, a little bit of pasta with bread, 99 calories bar, a couple of biscuits, 1 sante on crisp bread
I am quite sure I didn't go much over my points. I felt like I needed to go and buy something salty like crisps or something of the particular, but I did stop myself by thinking about my motivations to lose weight and get into the habit of a diet.
So I take it from here, try to do even better and get into the habit of counting my points, Exercise vitamin tablets and water won't go a miss either.
Goal weight, 68, 65 kilos? I don't know... depends how I look with 68 and what fits.
Hard to get into a diet when you have been off one for such a long time. I can honestly say that whilst I have been off the diet I have not enjoyed any particular foods or felt more hungry,just been to lazy to eat properly or count up what I have ate, never got much pleasure out of the crisps I bought or anything, so I will be no worst off. I have to get down to it now and lose a bit before May and June go by.
Points:
2 crisp breads with 1 sante (1.5) (these special bread things only have 17 calories, no even the 26 calories the corn cake has)
1 digestive hacendado biscuit (1.5) (they have an extra 1/2 point for having more chocolate and being delicious)
1 chocolate corn cake thingy (1.5)
2 rounds of bread with fish thing in not much oil (6 points?)
(I am trying to be more aware of what I eat and chew more slowly).
and from then on I didnt count points, but I did control myself
I had, bran bake at work, a little bit of pasta with bread, 99 calories bar, a couple of biscuits, 1 sante on crisp bread
I am quite sure I didn't go much over my points. I felt like I needed to go and buy something salty like crisps or something of the particular, but I did stop myself by thinking about my motivations to lose weight and get into the habit of a diet.
So I take it from here, try to do even better and get into the habit of counting my points, Exercise vitamin tablets and water won't go a miss either.
Friday 17 April 2009
Monday 6 April 2009
Diet part 3: Day 4
I forgot to list my points today, but I did okay and eat the right things. And I did the long walk again today. So I am quite happy with how it is going. The walk is great, my ambition is to walk 3 to 4 times a week. I am planning a soup and very light lunch to make up for the romantic dinner tomorrow.
Sunday 5 April 2009
Diet part 3: Day 3
Cheese on toast: 1.5
biscuits (3)
rice cake (0.5)
cauliflower (3 the oil)
lentils (8?)
cheese on toast (3)
biscuit (1.5)
biscuit (1.5)
rivita with cheese (2)
ice lolies (1)
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22 points out of 20
I did 1 and 1/2 hours walking plus some yoga
I did take my vitamin tablet
So even though I was slightly over, I was happy, as I did loads of exercise today. Must keep it up and get better and keeping to my points, but I would much rather to go a bit over the points, that not count them at all or go into binge mode.
biscuits (3)
rice cake (0.5)
cauliflower (3 the oil)
lentils (8?)
cheese on toast (3)
biscuit (1.5)
biscuit (1.5)
rivita with cheese (2)
ice lolies (1)
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22 points out of 20
I did 1 and 1/2 hours walking plus some yoga
I did take my vitamin tablet
So even though I was slightly over, I was happy, as I did loads of exercise today. Must keep it up and get better and keeping to my points, but I would much rather to go a bit over the points, that not count them at all or go into binge mode.
Saturday 4 April 2009
Diet part 3: Day 2
After one day of dieting I weighed myself, so I could have a first day weight. It was 74.1 kilos. I am quite happy with that, I was scared I was going to be a lot more. I have had some days of eating really really bad, salt and vinager crisps, chocolate, cakes, all sorts of rubbish, I mean, really binges, after I big binge all I feel is bloated and sick. Louise claims its psychological, but I don't really agree. She says if you were full up on salad and fruit you wouldn't feel the same as you wouldnt feel guilty. I think you feel bad because the food you eat has loads of calories and fat which your body doesn't need, and this food is also usually full of additives and other crap. I do believe you feel guilty as well as it is bad food, but I am quite sure it is not just psychological. I sometimes think Louise deludes herself with such issues. I don't argue them, I don't feel any need to be right, and prefer to have peace and nod and smile and say things like "It may be so".
I have payed a very high point price today for my healthy food. The salad was expensive because of the oil in the sauce I made, and the fish was also expensive because of the same thing, the oil. I only have 3 points left for tonight, so there will be pleanty of fruit going on.
As for the points, I am going to try to have 20 all the time. When I go under 70, I will have 18 points, so if I have already 18 points, I will find it really hard to shift the last kilos.
Points:
corn cakes (1)
cheese on toast (1.5)
biscuit (1.5)
salad (4)
fish + oil + egg (5)
biscuits (3)
rivitas with cheese and tomato (2)
rice cake (1)
biscuit (1.5)
cheese on toast (1.5)
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22 points out of 20 allowed
Did exercise (gym for both stress and body)
Didn't take my vitamin tablet.
I am quite happy with this day, even if I went a bit over the points. The thing was that the food I had meant that most of my points went very early, so I didn't have any left afterwards. But I did exercise and persist with the diet, and the next day (as I am writing this bit the next day, I had gone down more than half a kilo and I was 73,5. I think that independently from the points certain food you digest them better , such as the fish and the salad, even if they were with some oil. So, on I go with my last part of the diet.
Friday 3 April 2009
Diet Part 3. Day 1. Feeling Good inside and out
I am back, I will give my weight this Wednesday, which I will take as the beginning weight of Part 3 of this diet. This is the last part, the part the goes to 68 kilos (or 65 depending on how I look and feel with 68).
Points:
Cheese on toast: 3
cake thing (2)
puree (7)
bread (1)
cheese on toast plus corn cake (2)
rivita with cheese (2)
biscuit (1.5)
yoghurt (2)
corn cakes (1)
apple (0)
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19.5 points out of 20 allowed
20 minutes of exercise on the bike
Didn't take my vitamin tablet
Sunday 15 March 2009
Day 55, Operation Looking GOOD feeling GOOD
I put 55 days, but I havent been on my diet properly for over a week. I wont weigh myself til next Friday, and then see if I havent done much harm and if the harm can be put right.
Points:
bran bake (2)
kinder x 2 (5)
cheese on toast (1.5)
corn cake (3.5)
rivita cheese 2 (2)
cheese on toast with sauce (4)
ice cream (3)
chocolate biscuits (4)
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25 points out of 20 allowed
No vitamin tablet
No exercise
I went a bit mad at dinner. I really need to get back on track. However, I did write down the points, and I didn't eat that much over. Tomorrow will have to be the start of going properly back to my diet. I must plan it properly and do well. I need to go over my motivation. I want to be under or just over 70 by the 9 of May, I have about 7 weeks. It can be done, but with proper dieting.
I will weigh myself on Friday after 5 days of dieting, and I hope to have put right this bad week, and be back to my last weigh in, which was 73.9. Can I do it?
Points:
bran bake (2)
kinder x 2 (5)
cheese on toast (1.5)
corn cake (3.5)
rivita cheese 2 (2)
cheese on toast with sauce (4)
ice cream (3)
chocolate biscuits (4)
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25 points out of 20 allowed
No vitamin tablet
No exercise
I went a bit mad at dinner. I really need to get back on track. However, I did write down the points, and I didn't eat that much over. Tomorrow will have to be the start of going properly back to my diet. I must plan it properly and do well. I need to go over my motivation. I want to be under or just over 70 by the 9 of May, I have about 7 weeks. It can be done, but with proper dieting.
I will weigh myself on Friday after 5 days of dieting, and I hope to have put right this bad week, and be back to my last weigh in, which was 73.9. Can I do it?
Monday 9 March 2009
Day 49, Operation Looking GOOD feeling GOO9
Points:
biscuits lu (1.5)
digestive (2.5)
lentils (3.5)
rice with tomato and cheese (6)
bran bake (2)
cheese on toast (1.5)
rivita with cheese (1)
corn cake with sauce (1)
nuts (1)
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20 points out of 20 allowed
I took my vitamin tablets
I did some meditation last night and breathing exercises
biscuits lu (1.5)
digestive (2.5)
lentils (3.5)
rice with tomato and cheese (6)
bran bake (2)
cheese on toast (1.5)
rivita with cheese (1)
corn cake with sauce (1)
nuts (1)
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20 points out of 20 allowed
I took my vitamin tablets
I did some meditation last night and breathing exercises
Sunday 8 March 2009
Day 48, Operation Looking GOOD feeling GOO8
Quite a few days without writing. On Thurday I nearly had a post ready to publish, and I had kept to my points, and then just before I went bed I pigged out on these cheese crisp bread things in cheese. The next following days haven't been any better, as both days I had some crisps, and some chocolate, and did not count the points, buy I am sure I had many many more, probably more than double I should.
Having said that, I would have had more in the past, but yesterday did get quite near to how much I would pig out in the past, so I have had to put a stop to it today.
I am making lentils, and plan to eat healthy and keep to my points.
Points:
biscuit (1)
cheese on toast (1.5)
nuts (1)
lentils (2.5)
cheese on toast (1.5)
bran bake with choc (4.5)
lentils (2)
corn cake (1)
cereals (3)
rivita with cheese (2)
mandarine (0)
apple (0)
So 20 points out of 20 allowed.
Did not take my vitamin tablet
Did some yoga
I plan to have a good week, the only hiccup is going to be my period in the middle. But I am determined to continue with my diet.
The picture above is of a bracelet that I bought on ebay for a couple of euros. It's the first time I have bought anything on ebay for ages.
Wednesday 4 March 2009
Day 44, Operation Looking GOOD feeling GOOD
Points:
bran bake (2)
mini kinder bar (2.5)
corn cake (1)
bread and cheese (2.5)
lentils (2.5)
lentils (2.5)
bran bake (2)
corn cakes (1)
biscuit (1)
cheese on toast (1.5)
apple (0)
18.5 points out of 20 allowed
Took my vitamin tablet
bran bake (2)
mini kinder bar (2.5)
corn cake (1)
bread and cheese (2.5)
lentils (2.5)
lentils (2.5)
bran bake (2)
corn cakes (1)
biscuit (1)
cheese on toast (1.5)
apple (0)
18.5 points out of 20 allowed
Took my vitamin tablet
My progress
Each weigh day I will come back to this post and update it.
Start weight at beginning of 1st diet ----> 90.0 kilos
Start weight at beginning of 2nd diet ----> 80.5 kilos
Current weight ----> 74.2 kilos
Goal... weight ----> 68.0 kilos
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---------------------------Before (80.5 kilos)
Lost 1st week ----->2.6 kilos (77.9 kilos)
Lost 2nd week ---->0.6 kilos (77.3 kilos)
Lost 3+4th week ->1.8 kilos (75.5 kilos)
lost 4+6th week -->1.3 kilos (74.2 kilos)
Start weight at beginning of 1st diet ----> 90.0 kilos
Start weight at beginning of 2nd diet ----> 80.5 kilos
Current weight ----> 74.2 kilos
Goal... weight ----> 68.0 kilos
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---------------------------Before (80.5 kilos)
Lost 1st week ----->2.6 kilos (77.9 kilos)
Lost 2nd week ---->0.6 kilos (77.3 kilos)
Lost 3+4th week ->1.8 kilos (75.5 kilos)
lost 4+6th week -->1.3 kilos (74.2 kilos)
Monday 2 March 2009
Day 42, Operation Looking GOOD feeling GOOD
Sunday 1 March 2009
Day 41, Operation Looking GOOD feeling GOOD
Yesterday was a pointless day, as in too many points. Having said that I did not pig out, I just eat a lot more than I should to lose weight. I have never been to the shops since I¡ve been on this diet and bought loads of crap like before. On Friday when at X uncles, they put crisps on the table, X eat quite a few even though he always use to critize me for eating them. I can't say I really wanted to eat them, I was quite indifferent and didn't touch them
However, last night I had terrible diarrhea, I think it might have been the ice cream I ate, things like that seem not to go down to well if I have too much.
Anyway I am more or less the same weight lately, I plan to do more exercise next week so see if that helps me lose
Points:
cheese on toast (1.5)
corn (0.5)
digestive biscuit (1.5)
pumpkin pure (5)
cheese and turkey one round (2)
nuts (1.5)
apple (0)
cheese and turkey sandwich (3.5)
biscuit (1.5)
walnuts (1)
pistachos (1)
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19 points out of 20 allowed
No vitamin tablet or exercise
When I watched a programme the other night about anorexics I could quite understand them. I mean, I am not anorexic, but because of my other problem. From the outside, their problem seems stupid, just eat and you are okay, the problem seems the same for me, just get in a car and go as far as it takes you, problem solved. But the reality is not like that, neither theirs or mine. I just want a magic wand and my problem to be gone, and instead it is just very small steps and then feeling much the same as before. In many ways its like you losing weight, you have to put loads of effort into it, but then, you are just the same, but you know that if you continue putting loads of effort into it, you will eventually lose the weight, and I will eventually be well. But as results are not quick, and the end result it so faraway it can be really frustrating and every now again I feel very overwhelmed and disheartened. But I try not to let it last for long, I will not get far like that.
And on top I am on my diet. The thing is, I dont have to think of the whole picture, just concentrate on my everyday steps. The difference is, now, I am in the process of getting well, of getting slim, it may take a time, but before I was not in a process, now I am THATS THE DIFFERENCE. Every day takes me that very much closer to my goal I just get frustrated because I want everything now, and I want a baby NOW, not in a near future where in the middle I have to go through all sorts of situations that are not pleasant to get there.
So, one more step, and I have to think, I am going to look great this summer!!!
Friday 27 February 2009
Day 39, Operation Looking GOOD feeling GOO9
toast with cheese and turkey (7)
biscuit (1.5)
biscuit (1.5)
toast with cheese and turkey (3.5)
icecream (4?)
apple 0
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17.5 points out of 20 points
Did not take my vitamin tablet or do any exercise.
I went over my points yesterday. It is no good for my eye to look at the computer so I will leave it for today.
biscuit (1.5)
biscuit (1.5)
toast with cheese and turkey (3.5)
icecream (4?)
apple 0
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17.5 points out of 20 points
Did not take my vitamin tablet or do any exercise.
I went over my points yesterday. It is no good for my eye to look at the computer so I will leave it for today.
Wednesday 25 February 2009
Day 37, Operation Looking GOOD feeling GOOD
poached eggs on toast (7)
digestive biscuit (1.5)
corn cake (0.5)
corn cake + biscuit 2
bran bake 2
cheese sarnies 5.5
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18.5 points out of 20 allowed
I took my vitamin tablet
Did not do any exercise except normal walking
I did not take any fruit yesterday, bad idea, and I had a lot of my points at night, never a good idea, whatever I do I should try to have them earlier, having said that, I usually don't have my points at night. Must do MORE exercise, and MORE relaxing exercises.
digestive biscuit (1.5)
corn cake (0.5)
corn cake + biscuit 2
bran bake 2
cheese sarnies 5.5
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18.5 points out of 20 allowed
I took my vitamin tablet
Did not do any exercise except normal walking
I did not take any fruit yesterday, bad idea, and I had a lot of my points at night, never a good idea, whatever I do I should try to have them earlier, having said that, I usually don't have my points at night. Must do MORE exercise, and MORE relaxing exercises.
Tuesday 24 February 2009
Day 36, Operation Looking GOOD feeling GOOD
corn cake + sante (1)
small portion of pasta with cheese (4)
pistachos (1)
cheese on toast (3)
biscuits digestive (3)
bran bake (2)
turkey sandwich (3)
tangerine (0)
digestive chocolate (1.5)
apple (0)
ball of icecream with mint (1.5)
20 of 20 points allowed
I took my vitamin tablet
No exercise that is not the walking to and from the bus stop
It was 5 weeks last Monday that I have been on the diet. I must admit it does not seem hard anymore, at least not my diet. I rarely feel hungry, and the habit of going to buy pringles and such crap soon died out. I sometimes feel like such things, but not very often. I have my weigh in tomorrow, my last official weigh in was 75.5 kilos, and over the weekend I had dropped another half a kilo. However, I feel a bit bloated this last couple of days, and I don't expect any more loss. I have my massage tomorrow, I feel I quite need it. The above picture is a mandala, I will include one at the bottom of the post for you to print off, you are supposed to colour it in and relax doing so.
And you should get into your diet to, anyone can do it, and so can you, you just have to think of why you want to lose weight and how important this is for you.The picture from the other day is a minicot, I don't know if you have seen them before. Think of me as a reason to keep to a diet, I know everyone has to die, but all that fat round your heart can't be good for you, as well as making all your pains much worse for having to carry round all that fat. I can't imagine the day that you are not here, or how I will confront it. I think I would just settle for you to be here to see you first grandson/daughter. I would really like you to be here as they grow up, you are only 56, there is no reason why this should not happen. Please go on your diet, if you stick to it, you know and I know that eventually you will lose weight.
P.S. Click on the picture and it will get bigger and you can print it out.
Monday 23 February 2009
Day 35, Operation Looking GOOD feeling GOOD
Sunday 22 February 2009
Day 34, Operation Looking GOOD feeling GOOD
Saturday 21 February 2009
Day 32, Operation Looking GOOD feeling GOOD
Points:
2 digestive biscuits (2)
turkey sandwich (4)
bran bake (2)
cheese on toast with sauce (4)
corn cake and sauce (0.5)
4 corn cakes + sauce (3)
turkey sandwich (2)
biscuit (1)
apple
tangerine
No exercise and no vitamin tablet
2 digestive biscuits (2)
turkey sandwich (4)
bran bake (2)
cheese on toast with sauce (4)
corn cake and sauce (0.5)
4 corn cakes + sauce (3)
turkey sandwich (2)
biscuit (1)
apple
tangerine
No exercise and no vitamin tablet
Friday 20 February 2009
Day 31, Operation Looking GOOD feeling GOOD
Points:
lu biscuits (1)
dinosaur biscuit (1.5)
pasta with tomato and cheese (6)
pistachos (1.5)
turkey sandwich (3.5)
bran bake (2)
cheese on toast (3)
digestive biscuit (1)
corn cake (0.5)
20 points out of 20 allowed
I took my vitamin tablet
Exercise: At least 1 hour walking
lu biscuits (1)
dinosaur biscuit (1.5)
pasta with tomato and cheese (6)
pistachos (1.5)
turkey sandwich (3.5)
bran bake (2)
cheese on toast (3)
digestive biscuit (1)
corn cake (0.5)
20 points out of 20 allowed
I took my vitamin tablet
Exercise: At least 1 hour walking
Thursday 19 February 2009
Day 30, Operation Looking GOOD feeling GOOD
Points:
salad sandwich with cheese and brown bread (6)
apple (0)
mandarine (0)
corn cakes (1)
lu biscuits (1.5)
bran bake 2
cheese on brown bread with sauce (4)
pasta salad (5)
corn cake (0.5)
20 points out of 20 allowed
I had my vitamin tablet
salad sandwich with cheese and brown bread (6)
apple (0)
mandarine (0)
corn cakes (1)
lu biscuits (1.5)
bran bake 2
cheese on brown bread with sauce (4)
pasta salad (5)
corn cake (0.5)
20 points out of 20 allowed
I had my vitamin tablet
Tuesday 17 February 2009
Day 29, Operation Looking GOOD feeling GOOD
Points:
corn cake (1)
biscuit (1.5)
2 bread santé (3)
corn cake (0.5)
biscuit (2.5)
brown bread turkey (4)
brown bread tuna (6)
bran bake (2)
apple and tangerine (0)
corn cake (0.5)
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19 points out of 20 allowed
I did take my vitamin tablet
I did not do any exercise that was not walking to and from the bus stop
corn cake (1)
biscuit (1.5)
2 bread santé (3)
corn cake (0.5)
biscuit (2.5)
brown bread turkey (4)
brown bread tuna (6)
bran bake (2)
apple and tangerine (0)
corn cake (0.5)
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19 points out of 20 allowed
I did take my vitamin tablet
I did not do any exercise that was not walking to and from the bus stop
Monday 16 February 2009
Day 28, Operation Looking GOOD feeling GOOD
1 month on my diet today. Happy Diet Birthday !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Points
lentils (1.5)
digestive biscuit (1.5)
bread and sante and onion (1.5)
bran bake (2)
corn cake (0.5)
bran bake (2)
digestive biscuit (1.5)
lu biscuit (1.5)
corn cake (2)
2 bread sauce (3)
tangerine (0)
corn cake (1)
18 points out of 20 allowed
I have took my vitamin tablet
I did limited but quick walking from and back to the bus stop.
Sunday 15 February 2009
Day 27, Operation Looking GOOD feeling GOOD
(The baby above is just from the internet)
I am not quite sure if it was a good thing or a bad thing when I went to see Paula yesterday. This morning, when I woke up, I felt an urge of happiness, like something incredible had happened, and a second later I realized that that marvelous thing wasn't even anything that had happened to me, just to somebody else. I see the mother tired, every single moment dedicated to that baby, sharing that with her husband, feeling that incredible feeling, and I feel envy and desire for that for myself. Don't get me wrong, I do feel very happy for the parents, but what I felt was envy, there is no denying it. Every now and again I could feel tears welling up in my eyes, she was so beautiful, and I just wanted my own there and then.
I told X. that I felt like crying, and he looked at me in worry, said that it was not normal, and that now I was getting better this could mean I could get worse again. I had to switch a program of the tele, as a woman was going to give birth, and I just couldn't bear to see the moment that they put it on her. I even dreamed about having babies the night before. There is one thing I am really sure about is that I want to be a mother, and that I will be a good one.
And I know he is right, no thinking or wishing, or daydreaming is neither going to make me better or get me any nearer having a baby of my own. I just have to push it out of my mind, keep it as a reference to motivate and help me do things, but no obsessing will help. Maybe if I look at those horrible teenagers I can put myself off for the time being, and just imagine that it will turn into one of those.
At least I have a very strong motivation that will help me do all the things to get better. For example, the best thing for my anxiety is yoga, pilates, taichi, exercise, and meditation. I will never go bed again without doing meditation, and one of the other things.
I think in one way when I felt happy this morning is because I can see having children as a near reality. But I am finding it very hard to stop thinking about babies, and every so often, I feel very sad and I want to cry. When this passes however, I can see having a baby in the very near future, and I feel positive.
corn cake 1
sante 0.5
cereals 2.5
tangerine 0
biscuit 1.5
lentils (3.5)
bread + 1 cheese (2.5)
corn cake (0.5)
biscuits 1.5
apple (0)
2/3 of a bran bake (1.5)
picked at some pasta of xu, not much, but I will put more points (3)
18 points out of 20 allowed
Exercise: 20 minutes bike, some pilates
Did not take vitamin tablet
So my weight is looking good, even though I would prefer to wait til Wednesday to make it official. Everything is looking good, so in that way I have to continue. Tomorrow I will have been 1 month on the diet (My god, doesn't time fly?)
Friday 13 February 2009
Day 25, Operation Looking GOOD feeling GOOD
Points:
pumpkin pure (5)
salad (tuna, egg, onion, salad, mayonnaise) : 5.5
brown bread (2)
8 lu biscuits (4)
cheese onion on toast (1.5)
cheese on corn cake (1)
pistachos 8 units (1)
apple (0)
mandarins x 2 (0)
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20 points out of 20
Took Vitamin
Didn't do any exercise.
So, see what I weigh next Wednesday. My goal is to weigh 75. something for the 1st of March.
Apples are supposed to be very good for anxiety, as well as diets, and they have all sorts of other good properties, so I will definitely try to eat more of them.
To answer your question, no, I do not go to my altar. It is something that would really help me, together with pilates and yoga, but I do not do it. I know I am doing well, but I really have to make the effort to do these other things as well.
A famous tennis player that has breathing problems does yoga and these has increased his breathing capacity. I really have to do the same.
Wednesday 11 February 2009
Day 23, Operation Looking GOOD feeling GOOD
Points:
turkey sandwich: (5)
digestive biscuits x 3 = (4.5)
corn cakes (1.5)
fitness bar (1.5)
pistachos (1.5)
poached eggs with toast (5)
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19 points out of 20 points
Took my vitamin
No specific exercise, but I can really feel that at least I walk more now.
I am really tired, I have my period, a lot of snot, and I suppose I am having an early night. I hope to walk at least one way tomorrow. Maybe I will get the bus back as my period always make my legs hurt a lot, and if I go mad walking maybe I will make myself bad for work in the afternoon.
Monday 9 February 2009
Day 21, Operation Looking GOOD feeling GOOD
So today is the 3 week landmark.
Today I only had proteins for supper, and I did exercise. Don't really know if I can keep that up long term (I mean, just eating protein at night) it is bloody hard, I feel so hungry now I feel quite sick. So maybe it is not a good idea. The problem is, that proteins have so many points, that the two diets clash, so I end up not having enough. When you are on a protein diet you can eat as much as you like, but because I am counting points as well, it is difficult.
Anyway, my points:
3 rounds of poach egg on toast (8)
2 digestive biscuits (3)
pistachos (0.5)
fitness bar (1.5)
pistachos 40 grams (6)
19 points out of 20 allowed
Had my vitamin tablet!
Did exercise: 20 minutes on bike, 10 to 15 minutes walking to and from bus, some pedaling on my real bike
So I am really hungry, and in a bad mood as I find it IMPOSSIBLE to find a way of making mint ice-cream. All my contacts in US, have stopped shipping outside of their stupid country. Anyway, I am pleased I did all things: vitamin tablet, points, exercise... as well as my other achievements...
By the way, why don't you write your blog? I am sick of that pic of those cats.
P.S. I had my last point and had a corn cake with a cheese slice and a tangerine. Both the tangerine and the corn cake had carbs, but I was just feeling ill from hunger. However, I have not broke my diet, I have just broke the intention of having just protein.
Sunday 8 February 2009
Day 20, Operation Looking GOOD feeling GOOD
Points:
lentils (5)
cheese sante on toast (1.5)
2 corn cakes (1)
chese sante on toast (3)
pistachos (1)
rice (8)
1 corn cake (0.5)
1 tangerine
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20 out of 20 points
Have not took my vitamin tablet
Have not done any exercise
Not much to say, Monday tomorrow and will have been 3 weeks of my diet.
I am doing well but on the other hand, there is loads of room for improvement. So another week of getting closer to my goals. Step by step.
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