My oh My

Well, I got up this morning leaving X in bed. I went straight to the wiifit, and before doing any exercise (I haven't been doing much this first week of diet, to say none) I did the weigh in test. I was quite surprised, to see I had gone up nearly a kilo, from 79 to 79.8. I have not been eating crap, and have been eating a lot more sensibly, but as I said yesterday, without a plan, it is not enough to actually lose weight. I may go toilet and then weigh half a kilo less (this often happens). However, what is for sure is that I have not lost weight, even though the official weigh in is on Wednesday so there is time to make amends.

SO, I am going to write everyday what I eat and when. And I am going to add up the points. I am basically going to eat more veg, fruit and lean protein, do some exercise everyday etc

I did a lot of exercise, and then centered on yoga and then some pilates. My breathing really improved and I felt and feel very well from this. One of the key points to leaving behind anxiety is breathing. If I am consistent with these exercises, I will breath properly, and then I won't get anxious. It does sound very simple, but it is certainly one of the most important parts. So EVERYDAY, I will record that I have done my breathing exercises.

One of the key points to having willpower is motivation. That is why I want to renew my motivation daily, thinking of goals, reading motivating reasons to do things, reading other inspirational texts etc. I think that when somebody abandons a goal, is that they lose touch with their motivations, and because of this the willpower disminishes. Breaking habits are a problem as well, if you get into the habit of writing everything you eat everyday, and then one day you don't do it, and then another, then in the long run you will break the habit all together. Bad habits are much easier to acquire as they don't need any motivation to be formed. However, once they are formed, they become as much as a habit as the bad ones.

So my blog will be my way of monitoring all of these things. Even if I go mad, even if I have a binge, I will write it down.

I am sitting here, and it is surprising how good and better you can feel from just breathing better. There are key things that will improve my anxiety problems up to 70%, and I have not done it. I will this time, this month is not just about losing weight. I have the goal to lose 4 kilos, and I don't know if I will get there or not, the important thing to me is to diet everyday and try to get there. If I end up losing just 2 kilos, I will be happy as well. But the doing of the breathing exercises everyday, I DO have to do everyday, it is much more important than losing weight. I am prepared to lose weight slowly if I can be consistent in my other more important goals.

P.S Maybe dreaming of crunchies is fattening after all.